Wednesday, January 21, 2009

A little checkup

How are my resolutions going? Let's see....
1. Be on time: I'm doing ok.

3. Be generally more organized. I'm doing so much better! Maybe it's the nesting instinct!

4. Be more aware of when I am nagging my husband to death. Oh dear. I had a really ridiculous and shameful outburst on Sunday afternoon.

Let's call it "Fun times in Hormone Land with Devin and Marie" (the capital letters mean yelling/escalated tones)

D: "You eating the last of the leftovers?" They were spinach/artichoke calzones and are one of the few leftovers I like
M: "Well I really want to, but I know you like leftovers a lot. "
D: "You can have them."
M: feeling very guilty, but secretly wanting them
D: goes to heat up the leftover spinach/artichoke filling with eggs and tortilla
M: "YOU CAN'T EAT THAT! THAT IS GOING TO TASTE DISGUSTING AND YOU WILL THROW IT AWAY AND IT WILL BE WASTED" (as if Devin would ever throw food away)
M: "JUST EAT THE CALZONE!"
D: "no, it's ok..."
M: HERE IS SOME TORTELLINI. PUT THE FILLING WITH THAT. NO I'LL EAT THAT. YOU EAT THE CALZONE. JUST EAT THE CALZONE!!!!!!!! (it's warming up in the oven)
D: "it's really ok (can you believe he stayed calm?)" I'll eat the tortellini.
D: fills up a pan with water to boil the tortellini
M: YOU DIDN'T PUT ENOUGH WATER IN THE PAN! IT WON'T COOK RIGHT!
D: ....
M: now focused on gettting frustrated with Addison for spilling soup on the table as I'm eating cottage cheese (something I NEVER eat. Ever) and waiting for the calzones to warm up
D: Are you eating cottage cheese? Since when do you eat cottage cheese?
M: WHY DO YOU CARE WHAT I EAT???? I'M STARVING!
D: ....

That's when the shame set in. I knew I was being such a freaking nag that it was unbelievable. I knew I had to apologize, but I didn't want to because that meant I actually had to admit to acting like such a raging lunatic. This took about 10 minutes. I immediately burst into tears and apologized for being such a control freak/nag and Devin forgave me. We'll keep working on this resolution...


5. I want to continue to keep God first in my life. I haven't been getting up earlier, but I did re-discover My Utmost For His Highest and it really is a great way to get refreshed for the day. I think I'll keep reading this instead of trying to work on a bible study.


6. Drink. more. water. I'm actually doing lots better! I even kind of like water a little bit now.

Here are a few good things that have happened lately:
-A big, family pack of blueberries was on sale at Hen House for 3.99 yesterday. We all love blueberries (especially Addison) but they are typically way too expensive to buy.
-LOST comes on tonight!
-I found out that our old pastor, Dave Cox, who resigned nearly two years ago, after admitting to an affair is sharing his testimony/story with different churches around the country. I saw him on God Tube! It brought me so much joy to know that God is using that tragedy for good.
-Addison started saying "I love you!" Can't beat that...

3 comments:

Brandi said...

You really are doing so AWESOME on your resolutions!!

I'm very proud of how you are handling it all :)

Let me know if you need ANYTHING in the next couple of weeks. Or really...like ever! Even if its just some girl time. I am only like 10 min away :)

jenifriend said...

I'm with you, Marie. I had a shameful outburst just yesterday...in the car...for no apparent reason. At least your actions are somewhat justified by raging hormones...I'm only justified in being crazy. We'll both work on that!!

Amanda said...

That's what makes you and Devin such a great couple. He can handle your hormonal outbursts and, let's just face it, you bring a little spice to his life! I just had to laugh when I read your story because I could SO picture it in my head. :) Love you guys!