Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Hot pink reminder

Addison loves to have her nails painted. She's so cute about showing them off to everyone and choosing sandals to highlight her newly painted feet. The only problem is that every single time I try to paint them something happens. Something spills, or she smears it on my pants, or on the carpet. The other day she begged me to paint them and frankly the dirt under her toenails was kind of grossing me out (no one wants to be the mom of the "dirty kid" at the 24 hour fitness kids club, not even me). I sat her in her little chair, set the polish out of the way a little and got started. Well miss squirmy pants got a little too excited and kicked over the pink nailpolish. I flipped out. FLIPPED OUT! As a mom you know when you've gone too far with yelling, and I totally did. It would be one thing if that only happened once in a blue moon and every other incident you are June Cleaver. I'm not. More often than not I'm Mr. Hyde if Mr. Hyde was a pale, out of shape, housewife still in his pajamas at 12:00 in the afternoon.

I watched Dr. Phil today (just the icing on the cake of my little analogy up there!) and it was about a dad who was too tough on his son. The little boy was 9, afraid of his father and was already growing to resent him. Addison knows how much I love her now, and is quick to bounce back NOW, but how long will that last? How many times will I blow up at her for spilling something or drawing on the couch or cutting the cat's hair (ok that one was kind of funny) or whatever it is that makes me blow a fuse before she starts to resent me? Or maybe it won't get to be that bad, but to the point where she'll know I'm not serious until I start screaming. That Dr. Phil show was a really good wake up call for me.

The beautiful thing about all of this is it's not too late AND I don't have to conquer this on my own. Let's face it: I suck at doing it on my own!

2 Corinthians 12:9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Anyway, I never was able to get out that hot pink nail polish stain. I tried all types of things: nail polish remover, hydrogen peroxide, window cleaner (don't laugh...that's what about.com said to try!!). I am sure I inhaled some delightfully toxic fumes, but there is still a faint pink mark there. I have to say that I'm even a little ok with that. Not just because our carpet doesn't mean that much to me (which it doesn't), but that it will serve as a little reminder of how I totally over-reacted and how I so desperately want to change.

Thanks for your support and love! Now I'm off to watch 18 Kids and Counting. Michelle Duggar never yells.


Amanda said...

I love these little glimpses into your life! I go overboard with the yelling too sometimes. It usually happens when I'm either A) Frazzeled B) Tired C) Trying to get too much done. I'm trying to come into the frame of mind that this is a season in my life where it's OKAY if my house and chores aren't done as perfectly as I would like them. We have little children! Many people with grown children have told me that these years, where all the children are still at home, are the best years of life. And to enjoy them because they will soon grow up and be gone. I try to keep that in mind when I'm feeling really...grumpy.

Michelle Duggar and I must not be as similar as you thought because I yell!:)

Anonymous said...

I'm just curious is your baby (on the banner) supposed to be imperfect too????? Just curious and I have to say that is just downright mean!

Marie said...

The imperfect one is me (even though I'm sure Ainsley will get to that little mischievous in no time), but God blesses me in spite of that. This is just a blog about my messy life.

roz said...

Great to see you are back on your blog! I missed you.
I just love the way you relate scripture to your everyday miracles (your babies) and your frustrations! I have often regretted my own tirades with my kids...I agree with Amanda. I just pray that my four forgive.
I love you!
BTW, did you try Shaklee on the pink stain?

Alisha said...

Cute reminder! I'll remember to not paint emelyn's nails for a long time :)
Thanks for praying for Jake too. It means a lot to us. He has had really good energy lately. There have been times when he uses every ounce of energy at work and goes straight to bed when he comes home from work, but thankfully he hasn't had days like that since before Emelyn was born. God must know I can't do this parenting thing on my own!

Michele said...

anyone who knows you knows that 'blessed imperfection' is referencing you. we're all imperfect. (doy) and to recognize your blessings in your imperfection is a beautiful thing.

disclaimer: i have a pet peeve against people who hide behind 'anonymous' postings.